128 what works, what doesn't work

From: starstuffharvestingstarlight [e-mail] Date: 2010-09-13 19:57:58 Title: what works, what doesn't work

the upcoming concert brought up a lot of issues between the crew, except for me and T. i think mostly, there is a lot of childishness on how things work around here. i think maturity and humility are not something that most people understand.

in over 6 months, me, T, and our guests, turned the building into a fully working cultural center. during that time, little to no work was done by the rest of the crew. in fact, for 6 months, no work was done on the stage that was their main focus. it was necessary for someone from the outside to show up and start doing some work.

but it wasn't free work. while our work for the house was made for everyone's enjoyment, the new stage was a different story. i now realize that the work being done was only for themselves. when the kids asked to use it, we obviously said yes, we always do. but that triggered the childish side of the crew that built the stage. "we built it, it's ours".

objectively, there was more work done by myself, T, Ma, M, P, D and other guests, than the stage itself. overall, i'd say we spent maybe 2 months of work there, against about 2 weeks of work for the stage. we don't like punk music, yet we are for any kind of cultural action. but i guess this "scene" is full of issues, and therefore, we gave up trying to be a part of it.

i look forward to saturday, and to what i expect to be a teenager brawl. a small scene of supposed punks looks more like a drama filled high school dance. instead of sharing and uniting for a common cause, what i see is what always happens. shit talk over nothing.

what is the most important thing? me? the guys that built the stage? the bands? or the people we're making happy by creating an event like this?

in my opinion, i count very little in comparison to the 50+ people expected. what is the most important thing? our ego, or our capacity to make others happy?

as i said, maturity and humility would solve all issues. but they assume everyone chooses to be so. it's not the case. it's getting so bad that R isn't feeding T's dog anymore and hides his dog food in the room. wtf, seriously. the baby tantrums are becoming so ridiculous, i'm not willing to be a part of this.

it was enough to be exploited. it got worse when i was lied to. it is too much when i'm being made fun of.

godspeed starstuff ☆★☆☆★★★☆☆☆☆☆

Comments: From: N. [e-mail] Date: 2010-09-14 03:34:10 Subject: Kalm Face without a Mohawk speakin his mind

Hello there from the gutters of LS City, Which are filled with dog manure, vomit, stale wine, urine and blood. Hello from the sewers of LS City which swallow up these delicacies when they are washed away by the sweeper trucks. I´m just droppin you a line to let you know that I appreciate your intrest in those recent events [S.o.S- 1977]....and let you know owr side of the story. Hi I´m a long time reader, first time writer...LOL So you see [talkin to the people out there watchin US ..that dont really care what is the truth and who´s right or wrong - HA-HA!...so postin this must Be useless let the owners of the blog care about it...] there is no issues between the crew, we are all united, have the same views on that matter and we will continue that way. They have tried to divide us, classified us, break us all apart for their own purpouse and gain. Callin people children and stifle them just because they do not agree and feel disrespected and insulted, so yes ...not many people do understand what do you mean by maturity and humility...but we did, you breachin friendship and your WORD gaven to us [the irony ..coz it means SQUAT!], a verbal contract between two parties, two different cultures, two respecting eachother way of lifes agreeing on something beneficial to both, you see it as you like, I saw it as a group of friends deciding and building their future project. Oh Yes, J and T did it all, they even build the building 20 years ago with their bare hands, come on give the people some truth! what have you build and what really works, yes they build A LOT,....of useless things...like a pool...a pool ?! Portugal is 80% beach who the fuck wants a pool made with tires and burned plastic which was never finished so it doesnt really works, but personaly most of us were fascinated by their water system which is leaking all over the place, crating a lake with its wild life behind the building and further corrosion of the structure I would not be surprised if the building fell before it was demolished. But hey lets be fair J. did the electricity ...and that´s about the most usefull thing "they" did and very important for the house, I want mension the "chill out" flour, among other projects run and decorated by J & T. coz nobody really cares, nobody really goes there anyway or been destroyed by their own people and culture. "Oh but What about the workshops, parties and all we´ve done there?!" Yes you did, were we Invited once? got our e-mails send us a flayer or something, I guess it was private, No Punx allowed, No angry faces with mohawks to spoil the party...Right? Someone from the outside doin some work? and I know that you talkin about me in partucular... Free work ?! Do you know what normal, drug free, bread winnin, poor and honest, who are been victimezed in this society cravin for justice people call FREE WORK !?: SLAVOURY!! ...and Yes it WAS To BE for the pleasure and use of ALL, ALL Tribes, ALL cultures, ALL people resident or NOT of the SQUAT, at least that was agreed upon by ALL individuals involved in the project and present on the SQuat meeting, which by yer words NEVER HAPPEND! We are NOT! pissed because someone wants to use what we have build, We feel disrespected and Insulted by you goin behind our backs, decidin something else for all of us and then say you had nothing to do with it and doggin responsibility sayin the Kids did it all by themselfs, they let them selfs IN Right?! Without askin anyone, without seekin anyone´s approval ?! What do you blabin about that the stage is DONE ?! It´s NOT! ..and still ISNT! [5 days before the gig] ALL I WANTED [speakin only from my behalf now] is for you to say that YOU SORRY for doin that, because that is not a friendly gesture, and your answer "Oh what is friendship to you ?!" Wellll THAT ISNT! I´m not your slave, you can not tellin me What to do and what to say, I have been always much respectfull of you and you tried to make a fool out of me, avoidin responsibility and Insulting me by sayin I´ve been drinkin YER Beer eatin YOUR food and sittin on Your Couch, I was really speachless and the people present there were too, I´m probably the only livin Punk Rocker in the country and maybe Europe that DOES NOT DRINK BEER [due to health issues for those of you that do not know, while I was previewin this I remember that my homeboy (lol) N. from A. also doesnt drink beer or alcohol for that matter, but he has a mohawk so that´s just as bad as drinkin beer lol], I´ve never went to the SQuat without food or dRinks, [for me and for all ...and I dont even Live there..] Your Couch!? If I Remember well a month ago or so you´ve Posted once" that N. [that´s me] came in a big van with a shit load of furniture"...was that even the first time?! ...for the people´s knowledge that was the LAST TIME! 2 weeks working on the Stage ? People are not so stupid and actually can read the dates of your posts you know ?! So your pants might burn bright on that one too. during the 2 month perioud that I was envolved, we manage to get materials to bild a stage 40 cm. thick and close to 20 square meters of size, we have partialy build a wall with the same size as the stage devidin the room behind a stage with a perpouse of a back room/storage room/studio/N´s and the crew´s Batcave or whatever you wanna call it LOL, we have also cleaned and repaired some of the windows some of who were very important due the falty water system leakin all over the stage, we have also furnitured the place, someone build a bar, never knew who did, was it US, dont know [I´m not a resident so I dont know everything], but I know for suRe wasnt THEM! J. is working all Day and T. never did anything on that particular space, at least I never saw or know about it. They are for all kinds of cultural action ?! and yet they say NO to PUNK, they were the once suggesting we should all confront the young punx [most of the organization behind the event] and "clip their wings"...they were also suggesting we should Helped them, you see you dont understand nothing of gratitude and respect, for once They should Help US, not the other way around, we´ve started it all, personaly I dont care who cleaned it what, who washed what, who did what before me or US there, we did it for the only perpouse of doin something pleasurable afterwords, not breaking our Backs, so then can get stabbed even easier, There+s always perpouse in everything, life is meaningfull right?! Why are you expecting from us to be happy after building something and then the perpouse can not be fulfilled, can you see the waste of all that ?...but you can not understand the void we feel. Every underground culture and scene is full of issues people know that already, do not act as you are so much better then us, because you are NOT! you´ve showed us that, with you unfair comments, always badmouthing about Punx doin this ...and doin that ...you can not say anything bad about me, I ´ve got no social habits like you ...you lab rabbits Ha-Ha, I work hard for everything I´ve got [Yeah Yeah all property is teft, your daddy and mommy should know about it], I´m a poor and immigrant in this country and I´ll die poor and people like you will always try to drag my pride to the fuckin dirt, so you call me immature a person after a deal with you people, all that you proved is that you can not be trusted and your word means as much as a wooden knickle to a capitalist pig, some people in that house might use drugs [includin you] you might portet them as useless tossers always freeloadin ...doin sod all, but it aint that true is it ?! their work doesnt show as much as yours, because shopping, cooking and cleaning is not something I´ve seen your doin, and while drinkin from my bottle of water and eating my food which I bought on that day, you insulted me, sayin I own you something, I dont own you, NOBODY DOES. The most important thing to you !? is not respect ..not peace ..not solidarity ...it´s ignorance and selfishness leachin of our project, building something you and only you would like on top of it...and ofcourse you will invite some Punk bands and some punks will come aswell, but I dont care what you would do ...I care about the motive...as you said "I dont care and/or like Punk ou Punx I´ll be upstairs doin my shit, cant care less about you" you are doin it Just so you show the general population that you are NOT closeminded ...but the people that know you think the other way around, so you´ve failed to show open mind and respect, as personaly I did on more than one occasions with you and your culture. We are done with you, or pesonaly I´m done with you, this is not friendship, respect or anything positive towards a person that deservers it, I dont care if you bought a genarator [Who bought the petrol then ?! The petrol Fairy ?! No the Punx dug an Oil Well in their pockets and some of the vitors aswell 4 which we are thankfull "T.- I got no money today"] so you can get it in our face every now and then, coz we could not pay and probably one of the reasons to keep us under your control as soon as you heard we will pay the half of it after the gig, you changed the rules, gave our possibility of gettin out on the clear with you. Debt is a fine leash and tool of mass control which you know how to use, but money aint everything, the reason why you´ve been rejected. I´m glad R. does not give you any dog food, coz I bought it ...and He Payed for it,...and you were the assholes tellin us how much we own you [humility!?] and in the mean time avoidin all responsibility and tryin to control us. You are not willing to be a part of this ?! WE ARE ALREADY PACKIN!!! HAVE A NEW PLACE AND A NEW LIFE WITHOUT YA!! ... and to finnish I´ll use J.´s words " it was enough to be exploited. it got worse when i was lied to. it is too much when i'm being made fun of. " ...so byee.

P.S: that whole resistance thing !? Nobody´s buyin it ...Nobody caRes..everybody knows that the building is going down..stop tryin to look so neat infront of your friends celebrating the cyrcle of life or whatever kind-a bullshit reason you´ve got there, It´s a Building, 200 tones of Concrete and steele, it Has No Life ..the People aRe the Life ..and we Live ON!..Resistance to state control is useless, do not try to portret us as some mindless goons always spinnin out of control for violence whatever the cause or reason.