104 Big issues, and big decisions to be made

From: NebulaX [e-mail] Date: 2010-08-13 11:04:31 Title: Big issues, and big decisions to be made

When i first though about this project, i though about something really simple:

• everybody should get access to it, without any entry fee, which means if you don't have money it's no problem, i'll be there as long as others, to provide that for you. It doesn't matter your social background, it doesn't matter which is your favorite music style, what's your philosophy of living, etc. So basically, that supports and promotes diversity.

What i didn't thought about it, until the day a certain group of people wanted to start a squat along with me was:

• A community that wants to support diversity and accept anyone needs to have something in common. The word "community" is derived from the Old French communité which is derived from the Latin communitas (cum, "with/together" + munus, "gift"), a broad term for fellowship or organized society. Biologically, community means that you share the same space or environment. With humans can be an intent, beliefs, or whatever you want. In our case, we took something that's pretty simple and natural in human beings: reciprocity. This way, cultural diversity can be supported, because you can observe reciprocity in many cultures.

This ran into my mind because i knew fairly enough by that time, those who were involved in the squatting project. I also knew what were their goals concerning the squat (just living). I also knew pretty well their behavior in a community, and it was lazy and selfish, and they didn't knew or accepted as part of them the concept of reciprocity. Still, they came to the community and they are part of it. S and O since the beginning, R and I a couple of months later. Why? Besides me and J being the minority we though that maybe they can change and learn, and take something more meaningful (besides food and booze and a place to sleep) from the house, which is one important aspect of this community. The house, being so open, and supporting diversity everybody can change, learn and improve simply by knowing people that are different and see things in another perspective. Well, the conclusion is that we FAILED. Our fears from day 1 were right. My guess is that we failed because of the fucking organizational system we got into, that 3 people had chosen. My guess is that if we had a more utilitarian perspective on our organizational system, as J proposed from day 1 none of the fucking problems we have now would happen. Everybody wants to make decisions in their own lives and in the space where they sleep. If we had that kind of system that pushes you into contributing to the community and in which affects your weight when it comes to decisions and power, everybody would be contributing somehow even if it was just to maintain or secure their "slice of power".

And that is STILL the problem. R, S, O and I don't do SHIT. They are freeloading J, they are using the space and accommodations in which i put a LOT of my effort whit out giving anything back. Why? because everything happens around them without any need to contribute. Because me and J (and now a bunch of our guests) are there to do it. Basically they're abusing the system.

Today R disrespected me in many forms and ways. He is constantly doing the same with our "sharing-contributing-guests". He disrespected the person that defended him from P and M, that was there when S was on cocaine really hard and R, I and O didn't wanted that S disrespected the only rule we have because they were feeling bad and putted in dangerous because they can't handle cocaine or heroin if they're close to it. A big fuck off to that. Plus they take J as a dick an abuse of what he gives. So i am not going to allow them to disrespect me, neither one of my guests, nor i'm going to continue to watch the hypocrite behavior towards J.

Today i booked a meeting, and they failed. (uh..what rebels, like when you're a kid and you skip school or something).

Tomorrow, we're not going to point any meeting, instead just gonna grab them, put them in chairs, like we do with kids, and talk. I'm personally not going to talk much. I'm going to let that part to J and let him be the alpha this time, not only because i'm tired of that bulshit crap of alpha males (which i didn't asked for) but mostly and more important because, he is the start of a chain that makes this house work and also supports their lives with free food, free booze, free dog food, free everything.

<3